Monday, January 22, 2007

I miss the days when I was still a young child. I was pretty much sheltered and didn't have much desires. I spent most of my childhood days going computer exhibitions @ the old World Trade Centre, doing my homework and memorising the multiplication table in the kitchen.

The only thing I really wished I could have done more when I was at that age, was to watch more cartoons and have more time with the TV. My old telly was in this big wooden cabinet and once it's time to sleep or do homework, they would lock it up. I didn't really have many friends since I was young. I was bullied pretty often and emotions get the better of me. For instance, I was poked in the eye by somebody with a pencil during my kindergarten years. In primary school, people ganged up on me and hurled verbal insults, which I swore that I would one day grow up and be the one taunting and not be on the receiving end.

It wasn't easy being in a SAP school, I left primary education with many friends going into "famous" schools while I went to a neighbourhood school. Many would then move onto JCs then Universities. I just drifted away during the post secondary period.

Seconday School life was 4 years of ups & downs. The first two years of my life were pretty much the most glorious times of my life. I would either top the class or be among the top three for CAs or Mid Years when it comes to English. And surprisingly I managed to be in the top three for Science and Geography. I got 3rd place in class during the final year of Secondary One.

Then came streaming during Secondary Two. I will always remember, there was no tenth position in my class for that year. My friend and I were both eleventh He went to the second class and I went to the fourth class.

Life wasn't easy in Secondary Three after being demoralised. You study so hard, only to go to a class not of your choice. Your results are the same but yet you don't get your placing. I started to play around and as my testimonial says "He has not been taking his studies seriously." After a bad relationship, I could not concentrate on my studies and flunked my mid year. I failed 5 out of 7 subjects. Luckily for me, I did okay in my final year to get me promoted to the next year.

Secondary school was a time where I really had many friends. Many people to chat with online or offline. It was the dawn of the new internet chat era. Met many people from my school off the internet, forged new friendships and one that still stands till this very day. Got to know and meet many people from other walks of life. I guess it was really hard to concentrate when you have to live two lives. And facing a class with many people who dislike you simply because you mix around with your juniors isn't a pleasant experience. Shan't go on droning about the past, getting sick of it myself.

And many years later, I sit infront of my computer and am utterly bored. I even put this up on my msn personal message. "wun (read: won't) somebody chat/entertain me?" As a person grows older, his/her social circle tends to grow smaller, anyways this may not apply to everybody but it certainly applies to me. Would like to thank the wonderful people who answered my S.O.S and chatted with me on msn. The PSP also kept me occupied for a good couple of hours and that is why it is now on my wish list!

Gonna turn in now although I most probably will be rolling around in bed. Have been suffering from insomnia lately, this isn't good. à tout à l'heure.